Day 10- The Heart of Worship...

Point to Ponder- The heart of worship is surrender.

Verse to Remember- "Surrender your whole being to him to be used for righteous purposes." (Romans 6:13b)

Question to Consider- What area of my life am I holding back from God?

The resounding answer to this question is my love life. I'm good at handing over everything else, but when it comes to my love life, I seem to keep grabbing it back. Well, I should say I USED to. For a while now, I've pretty much stopped trying when it comes to stuff like that. Yes, I still go out with my friends, but not with the goal of meeting someone. I did the online thing, and stopped doing that. It's in HIS hands now, not mine. I don't want just any random guy. If I just wanted to be in a relationship, I think I could find someone to go out with, but I don't want to be in just any relationship...I want to be in the RIGHT relationship. The one God has planned for me, if that's in his plan (and for the record, I hope it is!).

This time last year, I was dating someone who I THOUGHT was the ONE...we talked about marriage, kids, and faith...everything seemed in alignment, but something was always off. I finally realized when our relationship ended that it just wasn't meant to be. The way he ended it, the way he handled it, it just wasn't right. (not to say that it was all his fault, because it certainly wasn't...i'm partly to blame as well). I gave my whole heart, but he held back, and in the relationship of my dreams (or of God's dreams for me) I don't think I'd have that nagging feeling that something was off. I kept trying to fix it, or fix me, and I (or anyone for that matter) shouldn't have to try to fix it...No relationship is perfect; they all require work, but, it shouldn't be just one person working to fix it...it should be both. I know that now :-)

So here I am...handing it ALL over to God...I trust Him with my life.

Do you?